Life has been crazy for me the past month or so. I fell asleep on the couch tonight at 7:30...but I was awoken by the vibrations of my phone. I'm an expert at not reacting appropriately when my phone is yelling at me, so I got up, went upstairs, put my PJs on, and got into bed(all without answering the phone or checking the voicemail). I read for about 10 minutes and turned out the light. About an hour later, I turned the light back on and pulled out the lappy.
I'm going through a weird transition right now. And I just don't know what to do about it.
About a year ago I realized that the friends I had upon moving to SF were all "gone" in some way or another. Emotionally AND physically. Many of you know details on that, so I don't have to go there. But its still a weird thing for me to think about. I lost a large chunk of my life all at once basically. Luckily, I had some friends there to hold my hand along the way and fill in the gaps. I am actually pretty good at that.
But this last month has been brutal.
Best friend MM who I talk to everysingleday got married and although our friendship hasn't really changed, I can't exactly call her at 11pm (or 8pm for that matter) anymore. She has different things on her mind. I've spoken to her
twice in the past 3 weeks for 10 minutes. Ouch.
Best friend MD (who is always good about mending arguments and such) and I got in a fight while I was in UT. I do the "right" thing and try and talk to him about it, and it backfires. We haven't spoken in 2 weeks. Ouch.
My boss who is also my good friend is going on maternity leave starting tomorrow for 4 months. The only possible good thing about this is the potential for taking naps under her desk if I need one. Ouch.
The day I get back from UT, a friend tells me that my roommate is moving. And in two weeks. Oh, did I mention that she's been my "other half" for the past year and a half? Ouch.
One of my other really close friends got engaged. I'm happy for her; and sad about the fact that I never see her anymore. Ouch.
In June, I lost 7-8 friends to their dental careers. Ouch.
Its on days like this, that I just want to call my Mom...oh, but wait. She's in friggin' Mallorca still and I. can't. call. her. Ouch.
Seriously, sorry for the pity party, but its just the way things are going right now.